I cried several times today. After my interesting morning, I got gloomy and super sad after recess. It was because of the sad and bad news that I heard AGAIN. I thought everything was fine already when I talked to Sir Jay yesterday. He promised me that he'll not resign until we graduate. I was fine with that but when we were lining up, he told me that he still have thoughts of resigning. After hearing those painful words, my smile turned upside-down. I was trying to fight with my inner mind that was trying to tell me that Sir Jay is really resigning for good. I wasn't paying attention to the lesson at all. I went in front to listen but nothing really worked, I was trying to fight back my tears. Katrina was asking “what’s the matter” but I didn’t want to talk about it. Sir Jay even asked me if I was okay. I just gave him a fake and sad smile. As lesson goes on, I was paying a little bit attention. When suddenly Sir Jay blurted out something about “malapit na siyang mawala.” which really caught my attention. I suddenly wanted to go to the restroom so I’ll not hear anything about the things he would say. When I returned to the room, Katrina said that “Kaya ka pala malungkot kasi aalis na si Sir Jay.” Those words struck my heart and it was really in pain. I’m not exaggerating it; it was my real feelings at that moment. The tears escaped my eyes; there was no stopping to it. It was flowing continuously and I was also trying to continuously wipe my tears. Even Majo was asking me why I was crying.

As we had our Physics as our last subject, my classmates were keeping quiet because like me they don’t want Sir Jay to leave. It was a very awkward silence for me. It’s very unusual for our class to keep quiet. We had a smooth and fun discussion. All of us were cooperating. As for me, I was like in the middle of the road trying to pick on which way I was suppose to be going. One road is happiness while the other one is sadness, cannot make the right decision. I stayed in the middle. The tears that were in the brink of falling were tears of happiness and sadness. Happiness because I had never had Physics class that was as fun as that and it’s so nice that everyone is in the mood to listen. Sadness because I have this feeling that this time will not happen anymore but maybe it’s just me being paranoid.

When I got home I cried again. Ang dami kong luha. :))

PROMISE IS A PROMISE. :D