Looks different right? I got my haircut. :) I’m pretty satisfied with its look. From the looks of it, it’s quite short from my old haircut. Its time for a change I told myself. So ta-daa! A new me! Well, not really new as in new, just the hair that’s new. LOL =))) NO MORE CURLY HAIR. :D

I’m starting to get pretty amazed with Physics. I’m turning into a Physics geek. :-SS Learning all the laws and concepts of it makes me want to learn more. Right now, I’m pretty occupied with my MDP and I started doing the Physics part which is really fun to do. I’m a bit dubious of its output because I don’t know how to put it all together.

PHYSICS IS MY CALLING. :))

I cried several times today. After my interesting morning, I got gloomy and super sad after recess. It was because of the sad and bad news that I heard AGAIN. I thought everything was fine already when I talked to Sir Jay yesterday. He promised me that he'll not resign until we graduate. I was fine with that but when we were lining up, he told me that he still have thoughts of resigning. After hearing those painful words, my smile turned upside-down. I was trying to fight with my inner mind that was trying to tell me that Sir Jay is really resigning for good. I wasn't paying attention to the lesson at all. I went in front to listen but nothing really worked, I was trying to fight back my tears. Katrina was asking “what’s the matter” but I didn’t want to talk about it. Sir Jay even asked me if I was okay. I just gave him a fake and sad smile. As lesson goes on, I was paying a little bit attention. When suddenly Sir Jay blurted out something about “malapit na siyang mawala.” which really caught my attention. I suddenly wanted to go to the restroom so I’ll not hear anything about the things he would say. When I returned to the room, Katrina said that “Kaya ka pala malungkot kasi aalis na si Sir Jay.” Those words struck my heart and it was really in pain. I’m not exaggerating it; it was my real feelings at that moment. The tears escaped my eyes; there was no stopping to it. It was flowing continuously and I was also trying to continuously wipe my tears. Even Majo was asking me why I was crying.

As we had our Physics as our last subject, my classmates were keeping quiet because like me they don’t want Sir Jay to leave. It was a very awkward silence for me. It’s very unusual for our class to keep quiet. We had a smooth and fun discussion. All of us were cooperating. As for me, I was like in the middle of the road trying to pick on which way I was suppose to be going. One road is happiness while the other one is sadness, cannot make the right decision. I stayed in the middle. The tears that were in the brink of falling were tears of happiness and sadness. Happiness because I had never had Physics class that was as fun as that and it’s so nice that everyone is in the mood to listen. Sadness because I have this feeling that this time will not happen anymore but maybe it’s just me being paranoid.

When I got home I cried again. Ang dami kong luha. :))

PROMISE IS A PROMISE. :D

ONE RUN, ONE FAMILY, ONE LA SALLE.

I was pretty sure that today would be very unlucky for us NON-ATHLETES because of our hot discussion last Friday. I was really worried about getting our jerseys which Bro. Marc said that it would be mostly his size. Eep! I don’t want to wear a jersey that looks like a dress. :))

I woke up 3 am in the morning so I can prepare my things. I was kinda worried because I thought that the bus would leave me. I was just in time because the bus left minutes after I arrived. I was expecting to have a long trip because we had to leave so early. I seated in the jump seat because I wanted to make “chika” with Pat and Joyce. I think we only had a 40-50 minute ride. It was cloudy there and The Fort was flooded with GREEN. We were the only ones who were wearing white. When Sir. Neil was distributing the jerseys; I was surprised to see that the jerseys were not triple or quadruple XL. :)) It was just the right size. We became even luckier because Bro. Marc still have numbers for the race! Before the race starts we took pictures and it was really fun. Kate said that it was unfair because we have both the jersey and the number while some varsities only have the number. The tables were turned. :D When the race started the rain also started to pour. We were all wet. During the race Ate Verna and I lost track of the others. We were really way behind the others; we just took our time and then “nag-boy watching kami!” YEAH BOY! LOL =)))) We ended the race at the same time with Loi, Vinch and Timothy. After that exhausting race, we lined up in some booths to have our snacks. We didn’t get free Gatorades because it’s out of stock already. Luckily, Lauren gave me his other Gatorade. :D Now damp from the rain and tired from the race yet I still don’t want to go home. It was like a once in a lifetime experience for me.

The trip back to Antipolo is really short. All we did during the ride was sing and eat. :)) We went to McDonalds after our trip; we ate fries and drink float. I was full already after eating those. We went to Joyce’s house next. Ate Verna can’t come so it was only Mara, Pat and me. We played the Dance Revo. We took videos of almost all of our dances. We look funny on the videos because our backs were only seen. SEXY BUTT! Haha! :)) Our butt movements were coordinated. =)))))

We had an open forum after that. The things that we talked about are a little bit awkward and most of them are about our personal lives. But hey, were friends right? So it’s easy to tell those things. Time flies, we had to say our goodbyes na. :)

MARA, PAT AND JOYCE SA UULITIN! :D

My legs hurt from all the running we did. PISSH

I don’t know if I could take this any longer. I’m so sick and tired of trying to understand everything but it seems that I cannot understand anything. I wanted everything to be fine even if it is not perfect at least it’s fine. I thought I’d be happy today because it started nearly perfect. Seeing Sir. Jay first thing in the morning was a nice start so I thought that maybe just maybe I’d be able to have a day not having any arguments with HIM.

During the One Run, One La Salle assembly, Jessa and I called the participants from section A and B. I was surprised to see that A’s teacher is Sir. Jay. After saying that the participants are needed, I also asked if I can borrow his sci cal. :D He said yes. :p I went to B and I got a little scared because Sir. Carlos was a little grumpy. :))

When Physics was our subject, I had A VERY HATEFUL EXPERIENCE. Sir. Jay even went next to me and asked if I have a problem with THE quiz. I said “Sir di ko naman po kayo tinatawag ah.” And then I laughed. That made him tampo and when I needed to ask him question he reluctantly went to my place but he was just joking. While he was teaching me for the SECOND TIME, things began to fall apart and it was too quick. I was just surprised because I didn’t expect it to happen. I was just surprised and at the same time hurt that my tears wanted to roll down my face but I was holding it back. I was there thinking what to do, I don’t want to be in between because it’s hard making decisions. I don’t want to lose anyone, I don’t want them not talking to me, I don’t want things to change.

(For the full story, pm me in Y!M or just text me. I don’t have enough time to type all of it. THANKS :])

I was freaking out last night because I was bloggin’ when suddenly the lights went out. I was so frustrated! I had typed a long blog already and I was only a few sentences away of publishing it. I didn’t have any choice but to accept that my typed blog is forever gone. I was so eager last night to see my finished blog because I was so happy typing all those exciting things that had happened to me. It was gone in one poof. :(( I can’t even remember all of its details. I’ll just have to make a new one just for that day.

I’ll just have to summarize all of it. :(

July 10, 2008 THURSDAY
I wasn’t that overjoyed of our first 3 subjects because during that time I lost my locker keys. All of my important things are in there including my Physics notebook. :| That’s why during Physics I was searching for it while Sir. Jay was teaching. I didn’t understand anything about the lesson. Such a bummer. When I lose my hope of finding my keys, I sat down on my chair sulking. Sir. Jay went to my side while my classmates were copying some things on the board. He blurted out something and I suddenly became confused. He said that “Alam kong hindi ka nakinig.” I replied “Paano niyo po nalaman sir?” I got more confused when he answered “Halata naman sa mukha mo eh.” It made me happy talking him. He even taught me the lesson personally. He’s really nice to me. :)

(Ask me nalang if you want to hear the whole story.)

Before I tell what unexpected thing happened today, I’ll narrate first my ANNOYING AND FRUSTRATING CLASSES.

Things started to go not-so-well because I really don’t like Wednesday. The schedule’s too boring. :| We don’t have Physics. :(( Technically speaking, I don’t want to go to school. Everything was not okay. I had another fight with HIM. But it’s fine now. :( Mom didn’t let me join the Fun Run. This really annoyed me. And then almost all the subjects we had today were way tooooooo BORING excluding Filipino. We had a really FUNNY play. =)))) My guy classmates wore mini skirts and wigs. They had fake boobs. =))) Nero and Kuya Paul were the funniest, they really looked like gays. OKAY, THEY ARE NOT GAY BUT THEY WERE REALLY GOOD AT ACTING AS ONE. =))))))))) After that it was dismissal already and as usual we go home late. Our usual routine were to sit in the stairs in the parking lot when almost all the students had gone home but this time it’s different. Kuya Paul went to the field to watch soccer practice so Kayla (my sister) and I went to roam around the campus. I thought that maybe we’ll get to see Sir. Jay when we go to the Marian Garden. We sat on one of the kubos which was near to the canteen. We saw some of Kayla’s teachers and got a small talk with them. We talked about Kayla’s crush and other things including something about Sir. Jay :)) One of her teachers (I forgot her name. I think its Miss. Lai or something. :p) asked me if like him. Yeah, I panicked. :)) Who wouldn’t? And then out of the blue I saw someone come out of the faculty room. I couldn’t see his face clearly because of my perfect eyesight. LOL :)) I asked Kayla if that’s Sir. Jay. :)) She doesn’t even know him by face =)) Ms. Lai answered that it is him. :) I shouted to get his attention; I told him that I missed him because we didn’t have Physics. Knowing that he heard me, I thought he’ll go to whatever business he was supposed to go to. It came too unexpected, he went to our direction. OMG! Not only that, after he said his goodbyes to Ms. Lai, he sat on the kubo with us. I was dumbstruck by his presence. I wasn’t my old self. I cannot stand sitting while he was in front of me. Inside me, I was screaming so loud because of the inevitable feelings that I’m experiencing right now. Anyway, we talked about him and his past. :> You guys know what I mean :)) It was kinda sad because I didn’t know that his past was unfortunate. It’s a sad story. Okay, enough already, it’s making me sad again. :(( It was really fun listening to him as he narrates different kinds of story. He also asked about my crush. HAHA :)) :> Unfortunately, he cannot know anything about that. That’s a B.S. :> All those annoying and frustrating things that had happened during classes vanished immediately after seeing and talking to him. It was the first time that I’d talk to him that long. My fairytale is going to end soon. He has to go home already but he made “apir” with us TWICE before leaving. Haha :)) He also said “ingat”. How sweet! :x :”> Tomorrow we’ll have PHYSICS! Yehey!!! =))))

XOXO,

I liked English class this morning because of Ms. Labanda's so called WORDS OF WISDOM. :))
Here are some of those phrases:

• Do you want to be gullible?
• What's with the hood?! :)) (I was laughing so hard when she said that)
• Yeah, Okay, It's playtime. :p
• Tires (I didn’t get it when they suddenly laughed :|)
• Uh-uh =))) (This is the funniest word she said)

I borrowed a book from Katrina it’s titled “HOOT” I haven’t read any chapters but I have read the plot of it. It’s quite nice and different from other books that I have read. Time to procrastinate AGAIN! Woohoo! I’m just procrastinating when it comes to reading books. :)

PATRICIA YSABEL OLIVEROS MAGLABE!! She wants me to include her in my blog. :p Oh ayan pat, okay na? :)) We had a little chit-chat during recess. I told them some so called secrets. HAHA :)) Anyway, after recess it’s PHYSICS!!! Okay going nuts again. OMG! :)) When we were lining up outside the room, I was in front. When Sir. Jay was already there he was looking at me while smiling. He repeated it many times and when I gave him a disturbed look he just laugh. Well, deep inside me, I was screaming with joy. I really really enjoy learning when it’s Physics. :D It’s just that my classmates are a BIT noisy and Sir. Jay keeps on telling them to keep quiet. After our fun Physics class, it’s Computer. We did boring stuffs. JOKE! :D Lunch was next and after that we had Economics. Sir. Villanueva wasn’t around so Ms. Rochelle substituted. During the report of my classmates, I didn’t procrastinate anymore. I don’t want to waste time. I took the liberty of talking to him and explaining why everything was like that. And again it was a big misunderstanding. Pfft :| TRUST AND UNDERSTANDING IS ALL I NEED. :) Enough said. :p

Physics was next! YEHEY!! We had double periods but it was not 2 whole hours. It was after recess and before dismissal. :( Pangit nung schedule. :)) Anyway, the lesson we had was little bit hard to understand if you’re not really listening. At first it’s not clear because there are so many letters and numbers that all look the same. :)) But as it gets to the middle part you’ll see that the equations are only few because all of them are exactly the same. :| SILLY ME 8-} :)) Anyway, during the discussion, we also had our I.D. picture taking. And by the way, I feel that my picture is not going to look okay for me. :-< :)) And I also volunteered to be the prayer leader. Before that we had a little talk about why he was not feeling well yesterday. I told him that I know why. He said “Shh” because he knows what I mean. Hehe :p

I’M SO HAPPY!!! :D

One more thing, Katrina said ” my arm touch the pot and it fall down the street and singing doo-waahhh-deee-gididam-gididum” . It’s really funny.

PS: Pat, no violent reactions. :)

Walking through the door of the classroom, I felt a sting of happiness. I again am inside mycomfort zone. I think that I express myself more when I am inside the classroom because I don't have to worry about the reprimands of my parents. I don't have to be prim and proper just for them to appreciate me. I become who I really wanted to be. :)
(This is not really what I wanted to write here in my blog. Just sharing :)) )

So where was I? HAHA :)) I really wanted to share what happened today. I felt topsy-turvy, happy and at the same time sad. Not really sad but kind of depressed. Ohwell, let’s start of with what happened in Homeroom period. I was trying to finish my Math homework when almost everyone wanted to copy from me. :-B :O :)) So as nice as I can be I let them copy from me. I really didn’t want to talk to HIM. :> You know who the heck I’m talking about :> :)) Okay, back to what I was saying. I was not talking to him but I was making sure that my voice was in his range of hearing. :D So nice of me =)) LOL. I talked to everyone else excluding him. I was feeling joyous because I know that he’ll be able to reflect on his mistakes. And by the way, I’m the prayer leader. :) Our first subject was English. We had our library orientation with the new librarian, Miss. Rosella. I forgot her last name. :p Anyway it lasted for about an hour and it was a little bit boring. Next subject was C.L. There was a new teacher replacing Miss. Mira today. He seems nice but I really don’t know his teaching method maybe in a few sessions I’ll be able to write more about him. :D His name is Mr. Nelson Magnaye. :) We had a little activity and I was one of the chosen people =)))) I really did not volunteer but I was just chosen courtesy of Jen-son. :| We had this and that in C.L. You know those boring things? HAHA :)) Time really went by so SLOW. And when class ended we had Math next. :| I think it’s the most hated subject of our class. We really don’t like the teacher even though she's our adviser. Skipping the part of Math class. It’s RECESS next! Yey! After that Filipino is next. And may I say it’s really hot during that time. We even had our air cons on its still freakin’ hot! #-o We had groupings. We’re supposed to have a skit and perform it the next meeting. Computer was next. Our activity for that meeting is by partners. My partner was Kate :) We only answered I think 2-3 questions. :) It was really hard. It squeezed the juices out of my brain. :))) After that we had another activity which we had to put citations for our references. :( BORING! :D Lunch was next to Computer. We have 1 hour for our lunch break and most of the time we are inside the bathroom. Why? Because we do the necessary things that we need to do. :)))) Next to Lunch is my favorite subject PHYSICS!!! I was really happy because I was the prayer leader and I get to stand in front. :p I was really looking forward for this subject the whole day. But unfortunately Sir. Jay wasn’t feeling well and I know why. :> :))) We had a not so interesting discussion about the air resistance, free fall, gravity pull and etc. etc. Economics was next. We had a quiz about the agriculture ekek. =))) I really didn’t prepare for that quiz. :| The quiz took almost half of our time and we didn’t have enough time to set the projector for our report. :D Lucky us. So it was another ending of my fairytale, saying goodbye to all my classmates was like falling into the depths of the ocean. Woah! Exaggerated! =)))) No, it’s really sad saying goodbye even though you know that you’ll see each other tomorrow. :p And again we stayed for about an hour and a half because we need to wait for our service to come back. Time again for chit-chat with my kuya. :) I learned different things from him. And some things that are really unknown for many people. It’s really private. REALLY REALLY PRIVATE. :-$

As I woke up this morning, I still have the memory of last night’s events. I felt cranky. I went downstairs after brushing and I found myself surrounded by a swarm of flies. Talk about our living room looking like a pandemonium. :)) Surrounded by flies I didn't even bother to eat breakfast. I hurriedly upstairs and pick up my novel: The Count of Monte Cristo. As I flipped the page, I felt interested in it. By the time I felt my stomach grumbled I stopped at reading. I went down to eat my brunch :| When I finished eating I went to the living room to watch. Bored by the show, I went back to my room and checked at my phone. There I saw the name of the last person I taught who would text me. Curious about what he text I hurriedly open and read it. A smirk ran over my face. Frankly speaking I really think he has this multiple attitude disease that makes him change his mood quickly. Not mood swings it’s more different. More of the annoying type. As I laugh hard, I deleted his text. I didn’t even think of replying to his text. What a bother that would be. HAHA :)) I thought that maybe he understand our situation and will not repeat his doings. Okay, enough of those freaky stuffs. :-& =)))) (I'm not saying that I don't like him anymore it's just that I'm tired of all his mistakes. He's choking me with it.)

I haven’t finished my homeworks and I’ve been sitting in front of the computer for almost 5-6 hours already. It’s a good thing I still have some spare time to write here. :D M’kay, so I still have to do my Math and CL homeworks. Such a pain in the brain :)) My head hurts already. The result of my excessive time surfing the net. I wish to finish them tonight so I’ll not be tempted to copy from my classmates tomorrow. :p PLAGIARISM! O:)

Ateneo won over La Salle. (79 – 73) GO CHRIS TIU!! OMG!
Off topic randomness :)

I’m really looking for school tomorrow not because I wanted to patch things up between us but to have fun and learn from my FAVORITE TEACHER (and to see him too :p STOP LIJAN! ). :x :”> :)))

OHMYGAWD! I can’t believe that I'm having an infatuation with one of our teachers. :))
Ok, it's not like like but it's a little crush. :">

He's really nice. When having our quiz, he always gives us the equation then we'll just have to solve it. Even when he feels mad he always smiles while scolding at us. He's like 20 something. Not a big age gap =)) He even plays DOTA with my schoolmates. And OMD, he's like fashion conscious or something. :)) I once told him that he's sexy 'cause he's always wearing skinny jeans every Friday. LOL =)) Almost everything about him is likeable. ALMOST. He's really not that good looking. But when he smiles he's kinda cute. :x He's also funny. :D He always tells joke and they are really REALLY corny. :))

One reason why I like to change clubs is that HE'S THERE. :) He's the moderator. Well, Physics is a little bit boring if you really don't like it. We had our club meeting today and we transferred to his club. At first it was really fun 'cause I know already our other club mates. I was really happy because when he asks our group he ended it with my name. I mean he's referring to all of us but with my name at the end. AYIEE! haha :)) "Bakit ang lungkot niyo? ha Lijan." OMG!! He also made "apir" to me TWICE when it's already uwian.

HAHA :)) Wala lang. Kinikilig lang ako :p

The teacher I'm referring to is the one on my last blog. :)
Shh. Quiet lang ha. :-$